Time, abilities, and opportunities are given to us on loan from the Universe, from our Creator, to see what we will do with them. It is not wise to be proud of such things. Time will take everything away if we don’t use it wisely. But if we use what we have, God will give us more. I have tried to apply this to every aspect of my life and found it to be true with no exceptions. Be grateful for every second you are given. Spend it wisely, and use what you have in hand to do the Lord’s will, for He does have a will for each one of us. We each exist for a reason. The more we explore that reason and sacrifice ourselves to that reason, the more peace and happiness we will have, and the more we will have to share. That kind of peace and happiness emerges from inside, not from outside.
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Posted by Joël on April 9, 2013
Blessed are you who have prior knowledge of the stumbling blocks and who flee alien things.
Blessed are you who are reviled and not esteemed on account of the love their lord has for them.
Blessed are you who weep and are oppressed by those without hope, for you will be released from every bondage.
Watch and pray that you not come to be in the flesh, but rather that you come forth from the bondage of the bitterness of this life. And as you pray, you will find rest, for you have left behind the suffering and the disgrace. For when you come forth from the sufferings and passions of the body, you will receive rest from the good one, and you will reign with the king, you joined with him and he with you, from now on, for ever and ever, Amen.
~ Jesus, from The Book of Thomas the Contender
Posted by Joël on February 2, 2013
We’re always looking for the big things to set us free, to save us from our miserable inner states. But what about the small things? This is where the work occurs, and if we don’t see this then we can stay stuck for an indefinite length of time. So we have to take one day and see it for what it is. No one is coming to save us. There is no magical alignment of the heavens that will instantly change the very nature of who and what we are. That choice is ours every day, and when we make that choice then the help comes, but only when we utilize that which we have in hand day by day. It’s when we learn to see the daily opportunities and use them to get closer to Divinity within ourselves and through our actions toward others that we are given more opportunities. But we can’t expect to move forward until we treat life itself as the battlefield for the work–every event, every interaction.
There is no space for a “normal” life for a Gnostic. It is not okay to just sit around complaining like everyone else. It’s not okay to ignore the people around us and our responsibilities toward them. It’s just not okay to be “normal” like that. These things are not for someone who wishes to progress in the spiritual work, yet they are traps we all fall into when we convince ourselves that we’re just waiting for the right opportunity to really do the work, right? You know we do this. We think, oh this ordinary day, what an ordinary day in an ordinary life, and right then in that thought we stop seeing reality. We fail to see that life itself is precisely where the work takes place.
It is a lonely struggle, but we can find friendship in it with others who are doing the same, and this friendship gives strength.
We have to suffer silently and see the traps of the various egos which exploit our weaknesses daily. It is intense, but it is the only way to true peace.
Posted by Joël on January 13, 2013
Being spiritual does not imply outer harmony. If it did, then Jesus never would have marched His way to the cross. He never would have been spit on, mocked, beaten, and murdered. He never would have been laughed at or called names. He never would have felt pain or anguish. He never would have had to avoid crowds and hide away. But we know that He did all these things. We know that though being perfect in every way, His outer life was far from any easy experience.
Yet what do we do when we approach the spiritual work? We might be wanting a healthy body, a healthy mind, a harmonious family environment. We might be looking for a conflict-free world where we get along with everyone around us. We might be trying to fabricate a life which we believe will bring us happiness. We might even think that when we get these things that it means we are being spiritual, that we are spiritual, and that our life is spiritual. But this is not the case. Spiritual life has absolutely nothing to do with outer circumstances. When chaos arises in the outer world, the first place to look is not how to fix the outer world but how to fix our inner chaos which has arisen in response. When this happens, when we harmonize inwardly, then the outer may or may not follow.
Contentment comes and goes. It is not the same as spiritual feelings. Yes there is contentment that comes with a healthy body and mind. Yes there is contentment that comes from a clean, healthy, constructive environment. Yes there is contentment with a period of rest, with having all our needs met, with being able to provide for our families. Yes there is contentment in all these things. But contentment is not happiness. Complications will always arise, and if we are attentive inwardly then we realize the complications are not much different than the contentment. They are both transitory, fleeting. It is the inward harmony and cleanliness that brings happiness throughout either outer experience.
Spirituality is not found in pleasure, pain, or contentment, but it is also not about denying ourselves the experiences of these things. Why run away from pain? We know it is transitory; there is nothing to run from. If we feel anguish, we do not have to write it off or try to smother it with positive thinking. We just have to go through it, seeing it for what it is, and being spiritual inwardly with faith. Remember with Jesus the two experiences become one, the marriage of Human with Divine. There was the Man who felt pain in the trials and tribulations (don’t forget Gethsemane), then there was the inner Man, the golden Man, free from both pain and pleasure, at true oneness with God, and this is something permanent.
Jesus did not seek to free Himself from that cross, did He? He could have if He wanted to, if our Father wanted Him to, but He did not, and this is a lesson worth reflecting on deeply. Why is our first reaction to pain in life to escape it? We say and pretend as though we put the spiritual first, but then we secretly think and behave as though we must fix the outer first in order to be spiritual. But the spiritual is not dependent on time or space or circumstances. The spiritual is in the here and now. Many people expend great amounts of physical and psychic energy to put on a harmonious outer life while in secret they are inwardly miserable in their dependence on outer harmony. They have forgotten that the spiritual is not something one has to show to anyone else, that it is not found in the fairy-tale life or the perfect job or at the next yoga retreat. It is not a display of anything nor is it an external experience in any way. Spirituality is a personal communion with God in our inner sanctum, when the heart and brain are ablaze with the fire of His Love. By walking with God, we know that He will provide the experiences we need in order to better walk with Him, that any complications which may arise outwardly are only temporary, and that this fire is what is true and everlasting, the fire of Being, acquired only by means of internal struggle free from dependence on any external thing.
Posted by Joël on December 11, 2012
Often times we hear of this or that person abusing a status as a so-called spiritual figure–yogis sleeping with numerous women, priests molesting little boys, old men checking up girls’ skirts for “demons,” and so on. Then we hear about rape and molestation outside of the religious scene, and we connect them. We think, “There is no difference between this ‘spiritual’ person and anyone else.” And we connect the dots of ignorance to take away all sense of recognition, but that sense does not come from an intellectual assessment, nor is it easy to develop. It takes keen inner observation, and a true inward desire for God. If that is not there, then we are just subject to the games of this world, where we determine that we cannot distinguish the real saints from the fake ones, and we conclude that they all most likely just want to get in our panties.
This is a shame, for we are closing ourselves off from true teachings which can lead us to real happiness and inner peace. But at the same time, this can also have its value in that it prevents us from being too open to any one person until they have rightfully proven in our minds that they are worthy of our respect. And this can be helpful, as long as we don’t make false accusations against those who we know nothing about. Do not go into things with the irrational fear that everyone just wants in your panties! Jesus said that you will know them by their fruits, and by fruits he means works. By an evil tree, good works cannot grow. This is his warning against false prophets. Yet, does Jesus warn that no one can prophesy? Nay! We know that there have been truly spiritual men throughout history who gave their entire lives wholeheartedly to helping humanity; unfortunately it is only a small group which usually realizes this while the person is still alive. The rest follow the hypnotic opposition which arises from the evil in this world. Jesus Himself is a prime example of such a person–strongly opposed in His life, even to the death, with only a relatively small number of supporters. But the great thing is, once we have found a good tree, it will often lead us to other good trees and away from bad ones, if we are putting their teachings to practice rather than trying to formulate them into a religion. For instance, through Samael Aun Weor’s teachings, I am able to destroy many negative aspects of myself and lift myself up to spiritual states utterly unimagined by common man, and through Samael’s continued legacy through Belsebuub, I became aware of such wonderful spiritual goldmines as the Nag Hammadi Library and The Flight of the Feathered Serpent. And through my associations with those who practice these teachings, I became aware of the master Yogananda (someone I know received teachings from him in the astral plane) and his wonderful book Autobiography of a Yogi. (Follow preceding links for free books.) And so, being on the inside, in a practical sense, one can come to recognize other saints.
But recognition is not possible for ordinary people. They are either on one side of the coin or the other. They either accept anyone as a guru who feeds them exactly what their countless egos wish to hear, or they reject any spiritual figure until he or she is long dead. This happens because they do not have the eyes to see nor the ears to hear. These are spiritual eyes and ears to which Jesus refers. In all truth, most people do not have these. These parts are painstakingly formed through an intense inner spiritual work and a singular focus on the path to Divinity. Some people have them from past lives, but they may not be very active due to the murkiness of the personality and ordinary state of mind. I must admit, I have long had a keen spiritual eye for saint recognition. Shortly have I been distracted here or there by some false figure of hope or spirituality. The real Men I have known have shown through good works to be truly Men of God. And though friends and family have rarely understood what I saw at first, these Men (and Women) have truly stood the test of time, and most of those I know who railed at first now understand the truth and good works behind these Men, as they have become more aware of their works through me. And hopefully, my life stands as a testimony to all those whom I hold in the highest regard.
Now for every real Man, there are a hundred and fifty men pretending to be a real Man, so be smart! (That’s just a figurative ratio. Statitistics would not know how to approach such a study!) Many men know how to fool the masses. These are the kind of people who you would see on Oprah or at a book signing, spouting just the right things to fill the masses with a false sense of hope. Their words are like poison wrapped in flowers. They are fragrant and sweet, yet more damaging to the soul than if one had never listened to anyone at all. It is better to be dead than to be a disciple to this kind of person, for they will wrap you in layer upon layer of illusion and drive you into spiritual complacency. They will drag you down to the abyss along with themselves, and you will not realize this until the day you die for you will be blinded, thinking the blind man is leading you to salvation, because you are addicted to the false hopes his words bring you, which you think you need in order to combat your despair. But you see, hope and despair are but a game of the mind. They have no substance. A real teacher will lead you to salvation and his words will aid in the development of spirit molecules within yourself which do not belong to time or duality, and this is not always a pleasant process. In fact, it is generally an unpleasant process but it is the one with true spiritual rewards. Revolutions are not pleasant, even inner ones, but that is what a real spiritual teacher will lead you toward. And this will increasingly strengthen your powers of election. As Judas states: we always recognize our own. (The Flight of the Feathered Serpent) Until then, focus intently on what you do know to be true, those great and sublime teachers who have stood the test of time, but do NOT become one of those who tries the living examples of spirituality to only realize the mistake at the end of your life; neither be one who tests a disciple who can see with his own eyes and hear with his own ears. Those who did not know St. Joan lumped her with any other deluded religious zealot. But those who actually knew her were different. But the truth did not out until her life had already been ended by the judgment of the masses. The same can be said of Jesus, and for many many Christian martyrs who came later. Many saints were strongly opposed in this life, and lies were spread about them. (Half-truths formulated to mislead are also lies.) This will be your loss, for it will cut you off from seeing and hearing the living words on Earth today, and few they are and difficult they are to find if one is not living for God wholly and with all his or her being. But blessed is the person who can recognize a true saint from the imposters, for he will receive that saint’s blessing, and he will, through his efforts and familiarity with his teachings, become one with that saint, and all saints are in communion with God, and communion with God is the highest goal anyone can have.
May the Lord bless you with the power of election so that you can find those words which will spur you truly and unapologetically Godward.
Posted by Joël on June 9, 2012
The dimensions in order from highest to lowest:
6) Causal/Buddhic (2 planes)
5) Astral/Mental (2 planes)
1) Infradimensions (where nightmares take place)
Too much identification in any dimension is dangerous, and the lower the dimension, the easier it is to remain trapped in it. It is important to start from where we are trapped and work toward being conscious in the higher dimension, working our way up. In this way we transform the darkness by converting it into light, slowly raising the vibrations. This world is rapidly falling into the second dimension. Therefore, we must learn to exist in it without being identified with it, and we must struggle to project up into the physical realm, using our senses to ground us there. It is easy to fall, much more difficult to rise. Therefore we must be vigilant, as Jesus tells us, like the man watching for when the thief will enter; the thief in this example is Ego. The smallest thought or emotion might bring us back to the second dimension but when we notice this we can latch onto something physical, allowing us to stay conscious there longer before being brought back down. Once we have a handle on this relationship, we will move to the next, the astral and mental planes where dreams take place and discover how to move between these planes. Ultimately we are interested in the Absolute, the Father, and it is to Him that we pray on this journey so that we have the strength and the guidance all the way to the end… or should I say beginning?
Posted by Joël on May 25, 2012
Just a reading suggestion, because I hold the book in such high regard. It is the number one book in my opinion. I think it’s a must read for anyone interested in understanding the world’s religions, philosophies, and sciences. Even if one does not agree with everything in the book, it is impossible to read it without gaining new insights and perspective, and all this in an extremely well-written, lively and dramatic story of friendship, betrayal, political intrigue, and more… Absolutely priceless book.
Posted by Joël on May 2, 2012
As I lay here observing, how thoughts and states zap and drain certain energies inside of me, I see a play of fear and pride so undeniable. Fear of what? It only takes something small, but it threatens who I am or who I think I am, who others want me to be, who I think others want me to be, limits and expectations of how I define the “me myself”. And as soon as this little morsel of fear appears, pride comes to swallow it up, to reassure itself that its existence is crucial, that the “me myself” is of utmost importance and must justify an array of thoughts, emotions, and most of all attitudes that come up in response to drown out the fear.
Fear of change, fear of not being anything, fear of not having a rule or an image to go by, fear of just letting go. Fear that if I let go, I will disappear.
But I am so much deeper than this. I am deeper than a thought, an emotion, an observation. Releasing the old, dying to the old to again become new is difficult but it is the only way. Let go. Release yourself from the bondage of the Ego. Release yourself from the old ways and be born again into a life of meaning and truth, into a life where thoughts and observations are not Truth in and of themselves but where Truth is an experience so unpredictable and spontaneous that it can never be packaged into a formula. This is how I want to live my life. This is how I want to be. This is who I want to be. Not the afraid little boy putting on a front to cover up his fear of death. Dying. We all must die. Psychologically, to die is to live, and to hold on is to lose. It’s ironic I know.
Posted by Joël on February 4, 2012