I’ve been playing lumberjack this weekend on this horrendous orange tree and some other things.

This was quite the dangerous adventure. Have you ever seen an orange tree? Those thorns are lethal, as you can see here with my fingers spanning the width of a thorn...

Yesterday I chopped it down and took it to the road and am now happy to have that fruitless, violent thing out of my backyard and out of my life forever.

Today I tried to finish uprooting it and did other necessary things around the house. Though yesterday went smoothly, today negativity kept creeping up on me, coloring everything with this negative, hateful tone and making everything much much harder than it had to be. Fortunately I remembered something I figured out when I was just a child, before this new age positive-thinking crap today. I had figured out that I could easily achieve seemingly difficult tasks by simply thinking that it was easy and not making a big deal out of it. Better late than never, I managed to apply this technique, not exactly positive thinking, deeper than that, really knowing that it’s not a big deal, kind of like a self-hypnosis. I also asked my inner Divine Mother to destroy the Ego (negativity) that was coming up. That’s something else I’ve picked up over the years and through experience found out works well. She has those transformative powers.

I also managed to apply this sort-of self-hypnosis when I had a heart murmur in the afternoon, resulting in weakness and the need to lie down. So I managed to lay there and tell my body and mind that it will return to a state of normality, that my heart would beat normally and easily, and that everything would be fine. And it was. It’s a shame to live in negative inner states, much better to take control of the wheel and know that everything’s gonna be fine and that we just need to stop being such a baby

Stupid tree... trees are stupid.